Random Ramblings

If I could pour out the contents of my brains cohesively, then I would find a way to thread all this mish mash together. But since I am exhausted beyond belief -last night the sound of the crickets chirping made me feel like my next purchase would be a beautiful white coat with thick straps that would tightly wrap my arms around my body, bullet points is the way to go.

*Last night was my first meeting at Weight Watchers. And, eh. I'm a little scared. I weighed in at 154.6, but that includes my shoes which weighed .8 ounces. So even though the W.W. nazi didn't deduct it, I'm going to. So. My starting weight is 153.14 ounces. Bleh. And I only have 22 points. And everthing I like to eat is more than 22 points so I really have to think about everything I put in my mouth. Booooooo. Hissssss.

*The deal was to buy this new J.Crew dress when I lost ten pounds,

but I had forgotten I had bought this one a few weeks ago. Same style, different print.

So, ahem. I bought this one instead. Because I'm excellent at finding loopholes to my own rules. If only I thought so much about losing weight and exercising. I'd probably be a toothpick.*I was recently let go from my current teaching position. I'm not going to lie, it hurt like a mother, but truthfully, I had been so unhappy, I wasn't planning on coming back, and I'm happy the decision was made for me. Anyhoodle, even though I've been a tad bit bitter, I'm all about letting people know (especially Mrs. LeDouchetard) that this decision didn't break me. And today, my principal actually came to my room and thanked me for handling the situation with such grace. It sounds silly, but it made me happy. As much I sometimes want to leave in blaze of smoke and glory, grace and dignity are the way to go.

*If you're not reading Andie's blog, what's wrong with you? She's doing this really cool dress challenge where she'll only wear dresses for the next 30-ish days. I'm totally in love with this idea. Lately, I've had to pull out my dresses and wear them to work because I'm so fat I cannot wear any of my pants comfortably (except for one pair of jeans and that's really a stretch).

*My FF is pregnant, and she'll be having her baby shower in a couple of months. I have fallen head over heels for this website, which has the most gorgeous party planning ideas. Seriously, it makes me want to get married again. To the same boy, of course.

*Two weeks ago, my therapist recommended that I take the next 30 days and concentrate on myself. But, I really haven't had the time. I quit Saturday school because even though I earned some extra dollars, in retrospect, it really wasn't worth the stress. And what I really want to do is quit my night job. But that's a bunch of monies, and money talks. On a happier note, I only have 21 more days left of school, 24 if I count teacher work days. So if I can just make it until then, I'm sure all the rest will fall into place.

Much love,

Smart Cookie

P.S. As soon as school is over, I can introduce the world to my real self! Yes, Smart Cookie is my secret identity, but prepare to meet Clark Kent. :)